Many people consider themselves as seekers but there are many kinds of seekers: some
who seek answers and some who seek just
because they like to seek, collecting the answers without never stopping on one. These types are
described here.
The various seekers
Among the people who are not satisfied to simply exist so as to exist and who seek a major meaning to their life, there is the atheist who believes neither in a God, nor in a transcendence not more than in a main cause and which lives in this world without hope of an after.
There
is the believer who inherited his religion from his parents. He
believes and has no questions. He is deaf with any voice coming from
the outside. He does not have any doubt.
There
is the seeker who was not satisfied with what he has been taught and
who looks around. He carries his glance far and reads books written
in other languages, with other words where are exotic practices full
with singing words and heady perfumes. Among this kinds of seekers
there is:
The
bookish
He
seeks especially books and concepts and, as with a lego, manufactures
a custom-tailored faith, taking here and there what consolidates him
in his intuitions and his concepts. He creates a sort of syncretism,
of mental construction which will vary in doing some readings and
meetings. Each met precept will be compared to the standard of his
a-priori.
''When
your mind has passed through the wall of illusion
all
your concepts will be gone.''
[Bhaktimàrga
1-4-45]
He
who doubts
The
second one is full with questionings, doubts and hopes. He doubts of
himself, hopes for something without knowing what and turned on the
right and left without never being satisfied with what he meets. He
reads, also, discusses and admires those which say knowing but doubts
to know in turn.
The
first seeker is attached to his research: he sought so much,
seeks so much still as he became a research professional. He piles up
the concepts, the words and the innovations. But he never will couple
on a way rather on another so much his mental construction, fruit of
his research, fasten him. He became a seeker and lives for this
research. To find is not his goal.
''The
attachment is made with burning and endless desires
which
chain you to the fruits of your acts ''
[Bhaktimàrga
1-2-32]
The
second seeker knows that he does not know
and his doubts allow him
the modesty.
He aspires to an intuition who would come from he does
not know where
but which would fill him entirely.
To seek does not
satisfy him.
The intuition which pushes him ahead
comes from a hidden
memory at the deepest of him,
that of the Peace which lives inside
him since ever
and which he does not know any more so much the noises
of the world
take all the place of his Conscience.
The
warriors
Certain seekers know that it is necessary for them to tend
towards the best and that they carry in them the weight which draws
them downwards. They furbish their weapons and prepare with the war.
They chose their captain, that which will guide them, in the battle
to come, and will have to lead them to the victory: themselves ! They
do not know who they are but count on themselves, on their own forces
to attack, then to overcome, this inertia full with darkness which
attaches them where Peace may not be.
There
is in each one as somebody who takes pleasure in unconsciousness, the
concepts and the self-love. This somebody does not have a name, or
has thousands of them according to whether one is from here or there.
Here is one which is worth others of them: “that-which-separates”,
false-ego, devil.
As its name says it well it cannot be united and does not want it.
Each time its host goes in the right direction it always finds a
flower, on the side, that it will pick thus moving away from the way
to the risk of meeting the wolf.
The
traps
If
the host is, definitely, attracted by the things of God and defies
himself of it, it will find the words to keep it under its influence
like: “God is tall,
I am very small… I do not deserve it ”
or: “the devil
malicious, it is necessary to fight it and overcome it ”
“and if I learned
all this small written big book by heart, each word, each comma? I
would be holy and so much worse if I must devote to it all my time
during so many years! ''
'' I do not have
time, when I am old I will do ”
finally… Anything provided that occupies its host without risk for
itself.
Never
nobody has defeated and never, in Truth, nobody will overcome the
evil. The human is so weak! Oh, for killing each other, destroy the
species which cohabit with him on the planet he is very powerful ! To
overcome his stupidity, his meanness, his heaviness, his
unconsciousness he does not have any force. Even for simply
overcoming his sexual desire, of nicotine, food in abundance,
recognition he is weak. Then as regards overcoming, in him,
“that-which-separates” !
To
achieve the goal
However it is his goal and he will have to reach it and he will reach it with certainty as true as one and one are two, one day or the other. What the time seen from the eternity? Nothing. But he will need help to do it.
God, his Grace which is
inside you
since your birth, can
help you.
This Grace is as a rain
which runs all the time.
It is enough to place
you below.
To place you below is
what you can do.
Some,
motivated, make Titan efforts, give everything and inflict themselves
deprivations, a terrible asceticism to reach this Grace and yet they
don’t put themselves below because they do not go to the good
place. A sine qua non condition is necessary to be placed at the
place where the Grace runs inside you and this condition is to admit
that you cannot anything, lowering the weapons, making conceal your
claims and requiring the assistance: to call the Help.
“Make
a request, and it will be answered; what you are searching for you
will get;
give the sign, and the door will be open to you ”
[matthieu 7:7]
